the frequency of enoughness 🔉
the frequency of feeling enough 🔉Â
Hi Sweet humans!!
The last few weeks of summer always seem to have this hum of anxiousness to them. To soak up as many rays as we can before Fall (and then Winter). The urgency to ENJOY (!!!) feels high and turns me into an anxious mess. AM I ENJOYING MY LIFE ENOUGH RIGHT NOW?! Anxious August hum + pandemic have me on a whole new layer of feeling fucked up right now.
Last week I launched both my first ever collaboration for Okay Shoe and also the second Edition of the Okay Oracle. All week I had straight forward tasks to do (list items, write product descriptions, edit photos, update the website). But when Friday morning came I felt sick, I didn't want to get out of bed. I genuinely thought about just canceling the whole thing. This was too weird, I am too weird, I am too much, the things I create are strange, I am afraid. These lasted for about 1 minute. I got out of bed, made a coffee, taught my 12:10 pilates class and the new stuff went live and the world didn't explode. Actually, it went pretty Okay!Â
We can be so good at talking our selves out of things when things get too risky, too new, too much. We can come up with 2039480023 excuses to bail, ditch the dream, stay small. I don't really know what made me get out of bed last Friday and soldier on aside from practice, and noticing when the voice in my head is being ~ self-limiting ~. I don't always know who is talking to me or what voice is saying what to me, but my tuning, listening and noticing what the voice is (and maybe where those beliefs are coming from), I can negotiate enough with that voice and tell it to shush.
Take an inventory of your brain space: what are the self-limiting beliefs you have? where do they come from? what are they stopping you from doing? what is one small thing you can do to prove them wrong? (like maybe it's getting out of bed anyway?)
I think just on the other side of those feelings is something great, amazing, cool, the next shift. Even if it doesn't present itself to you immediately – you still fucking did it. You still stayed strong, got big, stuck to your whacko giant lofty impossible plans. Because the world needs them. The Universe needs your magic.Â
So, to the voice in my head, shut up. Like for fuck sake shut up. I am so proud of this work, I really feel like in some small way the art I put into the world turns down the frequency of anxiety, and the rush to consume. So we all can be Ok. k?okay.
I love you all
xx
phoebe
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