everything and nothing 🕳🤸♂️
muddy stream, something. dead leaves, nothing.
everything and nothing ✨🕳
Everything and nothing hahaha cry cry cry
HI friends. How are we holding up? What's the same? Probably everything, probably nothing. I was standing in the shower this morning thinking about what stay-at-home orders actually mean, and state of emergency and all the greyness and uncertainty that comes with these things. My brain feels overwhelmed with bad news that more bad news doesn’t phase me the same way, it's par for the course in 2021. Of course White Nationalist stage a coup, of course the Pandemic rages on, of course front like workers aren’t protected! Of course! of course! And this isn’t to say that it’s right, or shouldn't be protested and changed. Instead, the shock value of these things just isn't there for me right now and instead, I think of Richard Jenkins in Kajillionare “HA HA HA CRY CRY CRY”.
And then the hot water ran out in my shower and I was left to quickly wash the soap out of my hair while sticking my head and hands into the cold shower and doge it with the rest of my body while also trying not to fall out of my bathtub. Of course the hot water is out! Of course theres soap in my eyes! Of course we’re in a state of emergency! Everything is nothing and nothing is everything!
HA HA HA!
CRY CRY CRY!
My brain feels empty and distracted easily, I waffle between whatever task I have at hand, to celebrity “news” (Steve Harvey's daughter Lori is dating Michael B Jordan), to sending angry emails to MPs, to lying on the floor. My creativity and capacity to create ebbs and flows. And I’m in a big ebb at the moment. Like the tide is drawn way out and the sand is starting to dry. I am inspired by everything and nothing and I am creating nothing and everything all at once. The weird part of creativity being my job is that they are times when I ~need~ to create. Like I have a deadline, or a promise of a newsletter, or blog post to write. I don’t think my creativity is any more good or bad when it is a part of my job, but I know that I need to carve out time for non-work-making, or non-making creativity, with 0 productivity or end result or maybe nothing at all.
What does it mean to create when there isn't a result? What roadblocks or lies have we been told about productivity with a result? And who told us these lies? And how do we protest them?
I DON’T KNOW! In the great vastness of everything and nothing, I have no answers. But we can find out together.
Offerings to dive into the vastness of creativity and lies togther
I’ll be exploring being a creative human with me + you together as one for a special GoodBodyFeel class on January 29th at 12:10pm 🤸♂️ my fav pilates class Be Centred + Okay Hang combine to celebrate GBF’s SECOND BIRTHDAY! Sign up here
I wrote more about systems that stop us creating and how to FEEL THROUGH creativity here 🎈
Okay Hang! Create in community in a judgment-free zone, or as a Portal Patron called it "fun and supportive digital open studio space with all your besties you haven't met yet" 👯♀️ UGH CUTE! 60 minutes! We meet this Saturday at 11am EST! 💃🏻🕳
I love you all,
xx
phoebe
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