☁️the multitudes of chocolate bars 🍫
fuzz over is also a great way to be a chocolate bar
the multitudes of chocolate bars
Hi sweet beings, how are you feeling?
I’ve noticed in answering this question I use the words “crunchy” and “chewy” and then realize I sound like I am describing a chocolate bar but feel nothing like a chocolate bar. When I am met with discomfort my reaction is to FIX IT (which I don't think is the wrong thing to do). I feel crunchy and think, again!? why? I meditated, I donated, I called my therapist, I drank some water, so why the fuck do I still feel miserable?
My Osteopath Marcelle has a white board in her office that usually has a sweet announcement on it, or a joke, but the words on her white board the last year have been, “maybe it’s not you, maybe it's the pandemic”. And I have to stick that front and centre of my brain.
Of course I am not okay! Of course you're not okay! Of course we’re all not okay!!! Of course we feel like chocolate bars without the actually FEELING of chocolate bars! We’re hurting, we’re suffering, while others are thriving off of our suffering. And it fucking sucks and no amount of mediation, or water, or funds I have in my bank are gonna fix it. But, also, none of those things HURT my cause.
And this is the tough work of the middle. The multitudes of space and feelings around us, the trench of dread flowing beneath us, the dumpster fires ablaze, and then also you're friend dropping your fav wine off, buying a cute thing online, dancing in your kitchen, your seeds sprouting, or just the sweet injection of a SUNBEAM ON YOUR FACE. The space of just okay.
So when I feel like a crunchy and chewy chocolate bar and not in a fun way I stop turning towards FIXING IT, and turn into just feeling crunchy or chewy. and have some compassion for my chrunchy chewy self and maybe that helps feelings be more like a chocolate bar and less like a condemnation.
I love you all
xx
phoebe
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