you don't have to believe in yourself ☁️
I image maybe this red winged blackbird also contemplates the unideal nature of sitting on bendy reeds but does it anyway, or maybe he doesn't.
be scared, do it anyway
Hi sweet beings, what have you been doing to stay okay?
My studio has been making me feel bonkers the last few weeks (months, a year 🙃). Mostly probably because I have been working, teaching, making, everyday for the last year. My studio isn’t ideal. I have to fold all my art stuff away when I teach, when Simon is on work calls I strategically place my table far enough out of frame to not be perceived. It's not ideal to live, work, do yoga, therapy, call your friends all from one room, but neither is a pandemic. I dream of having a ~more professional space~ with the ~right tools~. As I was dragging my folding table out of the closet after teaching feeling annoyed/sorry for myself, I was like, "this kinda sucks, but I am doing it anyway”.
I don’t have all the answers, I don’t have all the right tools, there are people way more EDUCATED, with the right tools doing the same thing. I'm scared, I'm not the best, it's not ideal. And, I do it anyway.
Capitalism, white supremacy, Patriarchy would LOVE to let us believe we need to have the ideal spaces and things to create. That we have to BELIVE IN OURSELVES to make art.
But, I don't think you have to believe in yourself to make art. I don't think you have to believe in my idea of ideal, or your idea of ideal to just MAKE ART. I don't think we need the ideal space of FEELING GOOD ABOUT ART to MAKE ART! AND I feel closer to myself in not always believing in myself, then if i was hyping myself up to believing in myself.
I’m scared. And I’m doing it anyway!
In the spirit of being totally afraid! I'm teaching a new workshop called "How to be a freak". What my freak self looks like, isn't the same as your freak self so we are gonna EXPLORE WHAT THAT MEANS TO YOU and then also make some rad art to express your weirdo-self through making and creating our own unique, special, Freak Clown Collars! AND because you are my Friendship Newsletter Pals, I got a discount code for yah NewsletterFreak for 10% off
I love you all
xx
phoebe
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