I have no idea what I am doing
i have no idea what i am doing
Hi beautimous friends
How are you DOING?! How are you FEELING? Each day feels like "this cannot get worse, right" and then you wake up and it fully has gotten worse. Lack of leadership, Police murdering Black people, pandemic persisting. There is no justice, there is no peace. I don't think anyone is okay, and if they are it's because they're profiting off of other people suffering.
So like, shit sucks. And we're all feeling it.
It's hard and weird to move ahead and create + make + talk about creativity when shit sucks. I feel like I am a big spiral of "what is the point" or "I have no idea what I am doing". And I think it is ok to operate from those spaces. Because shit SUCKS and pushing ahead means sticking to capitalisms agenda. And being anti-capitalist and anti-racist means confronting those feelings and giving them space to be felt. To give myself space to remember what I am FOR . When I think "shit sucks" I remember my mission on earth, my reason for being, my assigned mission from the alien spaceship from where I was transported from, my North Star.
Being clear on our missions, on what we are FOR is important and something I see artists (creators of any kind!) being so nervy to define that for themselves. Maybe because it is nerdy, or if feels like limitation, or just terrifying. But I think it will save us a lot of headache, and save us from those "the world is awful" spirals and turn them into "the world is awful" marinades.
The world is awful but what do we need to find sanctuary? To find strength? To find space to create? Or eats ritz crackers? Or show up to the protest? Or donate? Or call your friends?
This world is awful AND WE HAVE YOUR ART! YOUR COMMITMENT TO BEING! YOUR BEAUTIFUL CONTRIBUTIONS TO CREATIVITY! TO COMMUNITY! THANK YOU!!
How have you been creating? Have you been creating? How are you resting? How are you staying true to your Mission?
Treats for you
Shoe Talk with Jacqueline is now available outside the portal! We talk about ARTIST IDENTITIES (or as Jacque put it “identity situation around being an artist and/or running an org/company and the mental mind fuck that is”) AKA exactly what I am writing about here today!
I love you all
thanks for being here
xx
phoebe
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