the actual issues đ„
Hi friend, I asked last week, what ways are you taking from yourself? And it still feels like a resonate question to me this week. Running a business and being a human is hard. And it's not hard because its a lot of work (which it is) but its hard in that I am constantly reminding myself I am not my work. My self worth is not defined on the quantity of emails I send and receive or the dollars in my bank account or the art I have or have not created. I have seen a couple of articles floating around about the idea of "productivity dysmorphia" AKA Imposter Syndrome's new bff. And while I don't know how much I love those words paired together, I know it feels resonate in some way to me and I know it sparks rage.
I am in the constant struggle of reminding myself that being alive in hard enough, remembering to wash my face everyday and cook and eat meals requires a lot of time and that whatever else happens in the day is a potential bonus and that I quit my 9-5 because I din't like working 9-5 but then I torture myself if I am not at my desk from 9-5 (which like never ever happens anyway!!!!). BUT AND ALSO we are living in capitalism and capitalism tells us we are only good if and when we are exhausted from our output to the machine. Being a human and running a business or art practise or just anything that directly conflicts with capitalism (and I would argue anything pure good and cool is in direct conflict with capitalism) is gonna feel 1. really sticky 2. really shitty 3. burn us out in some capacity!Â
How do we reconcile beliefs, our core magma truths, with our actions and feelings? So that buzzy instagram posts about "getting over imposter syndrome" stop existing and we talk about the REAL things that are getting us down like white supremacy, capitalism and patriarchy. đđ„Â
ways in which we can potentially quite our minds/get mad instead
Sing on the floor + roll around (can verify this works v well)
Taking step to divide self from business AKA to stay updated with Okay Shoe specific stuff we have just launched our OWN newsletter that will be WAY less frequent than the friendship loveletter but allows me + the Okay Shoe fam to chat in a way that the Zuck can't be in control of. Sign up here! You're still gonna hear lots about Okay Shoe but my contributions to our continued effort to make art for all specifically!Â
I am hosting OKAY HANG this Saturday Oct 23rd 11am EST
 My sweet pal Stylo will be sliding into the online studio to host UNSTUCK! November 5th 6pm EST
big love + blessings + rage
xx
phoebe
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