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Hi friend, what inside of you is in conflict? I have been feeling a tug of war inside myself when I create.
For my 12th Grade Philosophy exam we were each assigned different philosophers and had to debate topics from their own point of views. I was assigned René Descartes and asked my philosophy teacher if we could all dress up as our philosophers for the exam. I wore a large blouse with big sleeves and got an A. Not a lot about Descartes still sticks to my brain, but I do know "I think therefore I am" and that he thought we spoke to god through our pineal gland.
There are so many versions of this from philosophers and artists through the years, Julia Cameron believes our inner artist is communing with god/spirit/universe, David Lynch calls thinking "fishing for ideas" and Louis Armstong said "what we play is life". I am not sure what or whos ideology I subscribe to, or one at all, but I do feel the tug of war inside myself. The thing, the idea, the seed of creation asking me to pick up the pen, write the email, or get closer to nature, the thing I know that is bigger than myself and my ego. The thing that screams and shouts and has a tantrum every time I pick up the pen, or hit send on the email. The thing that begs me to stay small, to not share. I am in a tug of war with god/godess/spirit/universe/start signs/earths gravitational pull and my ego when I go to create. To go farther in exploration and to get closer to my mission here on earth.
Sharing your art is the bravest thing you can do and creating it is the biggest protest of the things, the seeds, the inner bitch in your head (I call mine Roger). Ego.inner bitch and Roger begs us to numb out, watch netflix instead and not commune with the things beyond our realm and dig deeper into creation.Â
doing it anyway đđ»ââïž/ communing with self đŁ
I am super super mega cuckoo bananas proud to share I am joining Rec Centre as part of their 2022 Masterclass Facilitator lineup. I did a đ€źđđđđ» (when my ego is pissed I feel like barfing, ya know?) when I saw the other facilitators on this lineup. Alex has created something truly special, I'll be hosting HOW TO BE OKAY June 2022, details to come but if you wanna get hyped and read more check it out here!Â
I booked myself a hotel stay for my birthday all on my ownsome and and I am so excited AKA go be alone with your big beautiful brain Â
Doing my morning pages no matter what (even when its still dark outside đ)Â
SPEAKING OF Im leading an Artist Way Book Study beginning of Jan and into March (12 weeks!), you'll hear more about it but newsletter subscribers always get the DL first so here you go! đ
Get up from your desk and go ask a tree what it needs and then listen clearly for the answer
Daily affirmations in this style right before you make a leapÂ
RESTING! Rested Revolution AKA Flory Huang is siding into the Okay Shoe Studio to deliver the chill/upheaval of self. Warmth: Rested And Ready Nov 19th! đŻ
big love
xx
phoebe
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