My plan today is to write in a sunny corner cafe where the baristas knows my order. My Dad taught me to share tables in public. To pull up a chair next to a stranger and just ask for the free seat. He lived in Germany for years where this is the norm. I am the weirdo in all scenarios so I never really mind being the weirdo. Today I sat down at a table with an older brown women wearing a hijab. I hear the few random words of arabic I know but don’t know how I know. She prays for her cousin and his apricot tree.
Time is only measured when we assign quantification to it. 15 minutes ago or 45 minutes late. Too early or not enough time. I am always late or early. Never on time.
I think if i really did have more time I would spend it scrolling on my phone, the same way I “waste” the time I already have. I think instead I can try to get better at knowing the time I already have, get good at the present. Maybe time will feel abundant then.
Going with the flow, being present, is cute when the moment is nice. Painful with the moment is horror and a real practise of our facilities when we insist it is “not the vibe”.
When things to plan I get nervous. Waiting for the proverbial sword to fall, but only whispering, as if acknowledging its presence conjures a spell for the rope to snap. Doors ring, bell break, cats cry, babies meow and the rube goldberg machine of derailed plan takes motion. I wake in the morning with a plan to be reminded that making a plan is only ever a hypothesis.
FINDINGS 🗺️
My annual “new years planning” workshop is “late” cause *gestures around me* time is fake! Join me for Right On Time! Right on time is less about trying to make a plan, but almost the deatching, the away from planning. To unplan and tap into feels only.
We’ll be journaling our way through my annual planner and year in review. Time to reflect, time to plan. If your “New Years planning” is feeling sticky, same. This workshop is the New Years journaling workshop for that that hate the New Years journaling workshops (and something new for those that do love them 😉).
60 min total. 60 minutes of being together. 60 min of being seen, together. 🪄 Bring nothing but your sweet self, we’ll have a notion work book to move through but if you prefer good ole fashion pen and paper bring that! Join us while your cooking, painting, knitting etc. There is no “perfect” or “right” way to show up 😉
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Phoebe 💕
*typos are left to reflect the fury passion and 3D humaness of being a passionate freak in the world – and you know not a robot *beep boop* I am just a human girlie living on earth with a mortal brain 🤸♀️(and also like, don’t be an ableist freak🥰)
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