I donât think much of life should feel bad. But it does. Taxes arenât fun, guns are a thing, systemic oppression designed to keep marginalized bodies silent is abundant. I list these things every time I talk about life being bad because I donât think its enough to just gesture at the dumpster fire, but also I donât think I need to tell you, reader of this sweet dispatch, the intricacies of the horrific realities of the world â I am a slinger and researcher of pleasure, joy and play â I share my findings along the way.
My doctor asked me between pleasantries what I did and I made the stupid mistake of explaining my highly-specific-fully-made-up-one-of-a-kind-job to him. When people ask that question the answer is âdoctorâ âlawyerâ âaccountantâ or âteacherâ. Sometimes answering that question sends me into a shame spiral of âI am a dingle pringle and donât do anything of valueâ and other times I feel highly encourage by being a dingle pringle clown freak whoâs sole mission on earth is to find an okay feeling and bring it to the people.
My interests and hobbies are trite and foolish and could be seen as one dimensional but are in-fact the most important thing we could be doing that might possibly save us all.
I believe that reality t.v could maybe actually be a source of strength, I think hours of netflix could bring about world peace, Harry Styles will save us all and taking pictures of all the crocuses and waves to send to your friends will generate peace so deep within us that we will have no choice but to let it ripple out farther and farther into all that we do and create.
So yes I will do my taxes and I will also go and get my favourite chocolate croissant when I drop them off at my accountants door, yes I will continue to learn and give to dismantle Anti-Black racism and yes I will consume and celebrate Black joy.
Being alive is about the both/and, the explosion of binary into the galaxy of things that make us feel just enough okay to notice the joy beauty and expression of self that can be found. Relishing in the dumb thing isnât just important, it is necessary pathway into healing self.
What creation would be possible if we started solving for joy?
Sources of joy + pleasure + play
I have been on a self imposed tuna melt bender since Michelle shared her recipe. I cannot believe I havenât been putting pickles in my tuna melt until now
I too am a Bridgerton stan now
F.D Signifier whole channel is great but I learned and love this alot.
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This song for kitchen dancing + being alive
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many blessings for play, fun and triteness
xx
phoebe