hi friend!
It is the first official dispatch of the newest iteration of the once called friendship love letter (and if you dint get the memo I left you a bonus podcast episode to celebrate and talk about the name change!). Please welcome to the stage THE CREATORS DISPATCH! FindIng from the creative journey 🗺 🧭 “Friendship love letter” hasn’t felt right since probably ever. But instead of getting hung up on the name not feeling quite right I chose to write every Thursday for 3 years and after those three years of writing and hitting send and jumping jumping jumping spirit delivered the name on a dog walk of all places because the creative spirit doesn’t jolt when you ask it to, you must keeping walking through until it calls. I answered.
I’ve had a funny wobbly week. I thought everything I created was bad, I would never make money from my work, everyone hated me and I was a stupid idiot for ever even trying.
It made me think of every single one of my clients who bring me the exact same list of dramas and conflamas. Well I am here to say this shit doesn’t go away. But what I do think what happens is we get better at swimming through it. Our tools get stronger.
“everyone hates me” THANKS PUBLIC SCHOOL
“I am an idiot” Again, public school. Thank you to my special education teachers that managed to make me feel more like shit than my classmates
“I’ll never make enough”. Ouph, more like what is “enough” and all the shit of capitalism.
Entrepreneurship makes me deal with every single evil dark thought I have ever had in my life – everyday. And while I insist it is not confidence but instead consistent action, as consistent of an action as my human body and mind and spirit will allow. I raise my hands up say OK OK OK BUT WHAT IF I JUMP ANYWAY? I hit send when I am not ready or when it isn’t perfect. I trust that the process is the process and the only way to make it through is forward.
I launch into another fall because thats the only fall I can ask for and the fall is where spirit lives.
And this is why I am here. Because this shit is HARD. Creators dispatch are my findings and reports live from the field, to share what I know, so we can all know together. We are not supposed to go alone and you need someone in your corner to coach you through your shitty beliefs and then craft a strategy that doesn’t feel like we’re just gas lighting ourselves into action. I am way more interested in our relationship to ourselves than the version of “perfect” (white supremacy) that we *think* exists.
Fuck 100%
Try 3%, 66% 42385%. Whatever our capacity is at today, jump from there.
findings 🧭
these muppets and their gremlins
In The Roots slack is the fucking cutest thing on planet earth, this is why I make this work. Join us in process! 🌳
CREATIVE COACHING + ADVISING BOOKS 📖 Let’s get back on the path!
I think I linked this months ago but I love Little Shop so I here it is again
If you’re still fucking pissed this You’re Wrong About on Eugenics (i promise its very good)
FREE WORKSHOP ALERT! The Apathy of the world is pissing me off. I think Creativity is the antidote!🚨 Creators Dispatch is for the poetry and findings, I have a new delivery method to stay up to date on the TOOLS. Sent when spirit calls for it, so you can feel closer to your creativity. 🪄
Many blessings for the ability to show from from WHERE WE ARE AT
I love you all
Phoebe 🌷