Yesterday I had to rest and I didn’t want to but I had to listen really close to myself and bring all version of myself to the table for a conference. We decided rest now might lead to not exploding later and then proceeded to sit on the couch for 24 hours. Discerning between the voices and versions of myself has become a practise, I have learned who I can trust to lead the way. Teen Phoebe has been running the ship lately and she’s good at it.
I find the topic of inner child work to be overwhelming in many ways, little me has got a lot to carry – but I trust teen Phoebe. I trust the angst and anger she had (has!), I trust her to yell about the elephant in the room and I trust her sartorial ways. She is really good at protecting me, killer at boundaries and even better at loving me. Because she allows for the full spectrum, for the deep feelings of not giving a fuck and the giving so many fucks it leaves you broken hearted every time. Teen Phoebe’s creativity is wild and she makes shrinky dinks with her friends on Saturday nights and sleeps in on Sundays.
Letting teen Phoebe run the ship for awhile has taught me a lot about self preservation. It has taught me a lot about the collective and has allowed me to really embody the bits of myself that were not welcome (rage, anger, pleather pants in July). But it’s not enough to just say these things, we have to finish the action, play out the cycle of emotion, embody the believes our teen selves carry.
HOW TO BE A TEENAGER/ aka honouring your inner teen
Binge watch lots and lots of T.V (hello new season of Love Is Blind)
I am literally teaching an Angsty Apathetic Aerobics class this Saturday 11am EST (recording available for 48 hours!). Essentially the vibe is “be in a moody music video” 🤘😒😑 ← this is the vibe we are going for
Drown out every thing – crank the tunes/ Pilates + Sharon Van Etten
Make something, anything, preferably at night with friends.
Craft a boundary and get the most out magic out of your collaborations 🔮 March 15th 7pm EST (yes recording is also available!)