Someone asked me last week what the scariest part of my career has been so far. I write a lot about commitment because I think its really important, but also because I think the recommitment is just as terrifying and hard. I quit my full time 9-5 2.5 years ago but I have said YES to myself everyday for the last 10227 days.
Making the decision to jump one day comes with the decision to jump again another day. Recommitment to the idea is not just one leap, its series of leaping. Its forever. Until I die.
The truest most annoying thing I know about leaping is that it works its magic every time. Even when I shouldn’t leap. When theres a bill to pay, or a compromise of my values, when not leaping maybe feels like the thing I “should” do there is always a nervous system pang that says “yah but… jump!”. When I jump the opportunity to pay the bill appears. And its like this EVERY TIME. Every time I jump, the net appears, even when I think I may be in free fall forever.
There is nothing like a full moon to rattle you off course and ask if you’re gonna get back on track again or what?
When Kim K says “get up your ass and work” … I kinda agree with her take (kinda). If there is work and a dream we want to create, there is effort that is required to get up and do it. There is a leap that has to happen. We are responsible to ourselves and our dreams and actions and creations. We can be well resourced, and rested and be aware of our nervous systems and not make leaps just because someone else said “just do it”. But we gotta get up if the vision isn’t just sitting on the couch (which like, if thats the vision, I would argue there is a leap required to stay on the couch too).
And this is the beauty of creation. Anyones overnight success is just not that much of an interesting story to tell. The magic is in the trail you left behind, the leaps and jumps you made and didn’t make and the effort you put in even when it didn’t make sense to jump but you believed in you anyway. The work that happened for years and days, the commitment and the recommitment and the return to self OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN UNTIL WE DIE! Thats what getting up is all about.
So if there is any amount of “jump” inside you, the smallest whipser of “lets go”, find what ritual and commitment to self you need to hold onto to bend your knees, spring off your toes and enter that fall.
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many blessings for the leap!
I love you all
Phoebe