Each week I show up to the page like am about to pull something hot, fresh, new, prolific, daring, earth shattering and genius out of the air. That the time between last week and this week fermented something new and never done before. I act like I have an answer.
But after over three years (!!!) of this weekly writing and sharing process I have learned and learned over and over and over again that there is nothing new. Not just new in the world. But inside me. That what I am actually doing is an uncovering. A peeling back of a layer I wasn’t asked to be smothered in.
I read my high school diary on the pod last week and it was opening this online space. With much more concern over the day-to-day romantic life of myself and peers and a certain belief that I was the voice of a generation – the actual factual Carrie diaries herself. And in between certain crushes concerns – it’s a bunch of the same same.
The fermentation time between each dispatch isn’t a new thread to pull, but an unraveling. Actually, I do have the answers. That time, money, space, sex, love, hate. internet – whatever object/objection I find, is just distracting me from the actual truth. That the commitment to myself and mission and project and calling and vocation, has always been. It’s just waiting for me to answer the call – again.
Each year the magnolias bloom and strangers and tourist take photos of the tree’s. Each year the tulips bloom and clouds waiver. The remembering is part of the pattern. Unfurling into ourselves isn’t regular degular same-sameing. But the most honest place we could ever bloom into, again again and again.
Findings 🤸♀️
My friend Alexandra sent this to me right after I finished writing this
TO-FRIKKIN-NIGHT! Join
for WHAT IF BUSINESS FELT MORE LIKE ART! Part workshop, part discover, part play 🤸♀️🎭 honestly I am so jazed/proud/excited/ahhhh – Join us!
Made this tofu bbq situation last night (so good!) and
is my new fav food substack for CERTAINWearing eyeliner on Tuesday mornings
Pjs at noon
Staring at the magnolias knowing they’re leaving us soon 🌸
🌬️Scaling down this launch and whispering tha t🌬️ ~doors to In The Roots are in fact open ~ if deep remembering and total radical permission is your vibe ✌️ Turn your creative vision into an actual factual business. We approach biz + art in an intuitive, feelings focused way AKA there is not do X to get Y result around here. We strategize with magnolia trees, inner compasses and inner knowing 🌸🌱🌳
this concept but tbh bare minimum most days these days
I love you all like I love the watered down clouds and leather like petals
xx
phoebe ✌️
glad you liked it! <3