I have always had a less than palatable sense of âstyleâ. My taster is certainly not for everyone, but I like it and I donât think I am special enough that I can be the only one that likes lime green pants. As a kid I spent my allowance on sparkly purple lipstick I wore to school with a crochet pink sequin beanie. I loved tucking my hair back behind my ears with a strong middle part middle and wearing the same hot pink and lime green sweater. Our intuition is often played out in our taste. We know when something just ~feels right~.
I get asked a lot âhow are you so confidentâ and I think a lot of the time people conflate the desire to wear lime green pants, in all different variations, with confidence.
I smile really big and wear fun pants. But am I confident? I can get up in front of any room and speak passionately about my desire for everyone to make their art. But am I confident? I can get hung up on every little detail of a creation so much so that I never put it out into the world. But am I confident?
I know I tolerate very little discomfort in my life. And if I am uncomfortable I work hard to change that for myself. I really only do things that my central nervous system yells out a a resounding âFUCK YESâ. It doesnât always mean those things are comfortable immediately, but means I have the capacity to be uncomfortable enough.
I think this is where people get caught up in the weeds.
âOnce I ABC then I will make X and feel Yâ
We need to have enough confidence in ourselves to try. But I truly wonder what if we were scared and do it anyway. If instead he held onto intuition, taste, the light that says âlets goâ.
âI know I want to create something, but I am scaredâ.
We get lost, we get caught up in the weeds, the overwhelm feels far too great to even try. We think getting lost on the journey means weâve travelled way off course, but I think itâs very much apart of it. Wavering confidence is just that. The song of a siren, the gremlin that lures you into the woods, a dark wizard looming around the next bend can all drag us off course and in the process have that glimmer of âlets goâ snuffed out. Finding the confidence to act is the work.
Knowing that confidence and courage are available when we want to make the decision to return to the path. Knowing that this is a feeling and moving with it is how we get back. Maybe I do not have the confidence but I know I need a change. Maybe I donât have confidence but wearing the lime green pants feels a whole lot closer to me than black ones do. I know there is a step forward and change for my life and project and vision of a better world that if I stepped onto the stage maybe that feeling will follow.
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ON THE PATH
Rajiv is back and I guess I am taking up wood carving now đ€·ââïž
Im teaching a FREE class with Hamilton Fringe this Saturday @1pm đ see you in the Fringe Club
In The Roots Open Studio today at 3pm đ·
Im not doing to pretend to be above this drama
THIS is what I am after for my life. Azikiwe Mohammed is a Guy Who Makes Stuff
If all else fails just astral project to a mushroom
many blessings for gumption, courage and confidence to get back to the path!
I love you all
xx
Phoebe